Tenth Chapter

I, What?

 

Rune’s side

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“……n”

 

My body feels heavy

 

The whole thing is heavy

 

When I opened my eyes, I saw was a white-ish wall

 

(A wall?)

 

I, where am I?

 

I absent-mindedly think….and a short time later I remember

 

(I, was embraced by Shin-sama)

 

As a beastman, although I can’t say I never thought a man would embrace me, I thought it was a pretty unlikely idle curiosity

 

Moreover it wasn’t rape

 

Isn’t it strange that I didn’t just feel pain

 

The amount of pleasure I felt from the medicine was not little

 

All the stories I’ve heard each and every one is tragic and pain-filled, so if that sort of thing were to be done, I thought I it would be better to resolutely be killed

 

However, Shin-sama wasn’t like that and embraced me as if he held affection for me

 

Often calling out Rune, and if I gasped in pain he would stop moving

 

I was gently embraced, I thought

 

Although I was flustered when he told me he wouldn’t stop, he let me experience a completely pleasant feeling

 

The feeling was too good, refusing such a feeling, there’s not even a particle of such an intention

 

A safe place, expensive clothes, enough food to never go hungry….

 

Although he said I’m not a slave, he’s given me too much

 

There’s nothing I can do in return

 

(With this, was I at least a bit helpful?)

 

Although I can only help satisfy his sexual desire

 

Even though all he needs to do if he want me to be a sex slave is order me since I’m subordinated……

 

Shin-sama didn’t do that

 

He asked me

 

Even though I had no intention to refuse, only, he said it was fine for me to refuse

 

For some reason I felt calm being in Shin-sama’s embrace 

 

[I always want to stay like this]

 

Such a foolish thought, popped into my head

 

——even though there’s no way it would come true

 

I am just a beasman that Shin-sama saved due to his whimsy

 

Even though I should be satisfied with just this much, my chest hurts

 

What in the world is wrong with me?

 

In Shin-sama’s embrace, even though I feel safe, it hurts

 

“Yo…..chi……”

 

At that time I heard a small voice, and I was tightly embraced

 

With that, somehow or other, I could understand

 

I, resemble Shin-sama’s acquaintance, I, whose face resembles that person, was embraced as a substitute

 

(Who am I substituting for….)

 

Although I know I’m in no position to criticize him for that

 

……but even so, why am I sad?

 

Even though it’s my own feelings, I don’t understand 

 

 

(…..come to think of it, Rau is?)

 

She isn’t in this place

 

I remember we were in the dining room putting things away, after that I lost track of how much time passed

 

While I did my best to slip out despite the pain in my lower back, Shin-sama seemed to wake up

 

“……Are you up?”

 

The arms restraining me disappeared, and Shin-sama’s body slowly got up, I felt like something was off

 

“Shin-sama, that hair……”

 

His hair that should only go to his shoulders now is the length to reach the bed even though he’s sitting up

 

“Ah—…..when my reason flew away, it seemed to return to how it was originally”

 

It seems that this was his original appearance

 

Whenever he scratched his head his silky hair swayed

 

I wanted to touch it and unconsciously my hand reached out to it

 

“Why was it shortened?”

 

“Cause it’s a bother”

 

His reply was concise

 

“……isn’t it even longer than before”

 

I could hear him mutter in displeasure

 

“It being long, is unpleasant?”

 

Without getting up, I reach out and caress the nearby Shin-sama’s hair

 

It’s silky smooth and feels nice

 

“Rune prefers it long?”

 

I unconsciously agree——

 

“Then when I’m awake, I’ll stay like this”

 

Telling me such, I felt happy

 

To be able to have my request granted

 

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“Want to see Rau? You should wear your clothes”

 

“Eh!? Wa,wait a moment”

 

Even though I felt sluggish and couldn’t get up, to put on the clothes…….

 

Moreover, the clothes to put on were high quality clothes it’s my first time wearing

 

The way to put on these clothes is difficult

 

I slowly gathered my clothes and intended put them on, but since I couldn’t get my body up I can’t properly put them on

 

“Clothes to Rune’s room, Dress him in pajamas”

 

The clothes I’d managed to put on up till then disappeared and in exchange I was wearing the simple clothes like what Shin-sama usually wore

 

The clothes were pale blue

 

Before I realized it Shin-sama was already wearing clothes

 

Today’s are different from usual, there are two slits below the waist and inside he’s wearing pants

 

They are white colored and the hem is red

 

The pants are dark red

 

The hair was of course a bother, the hair on the sides were tied back with an expensive seeming golden hair clip

 

Shin-sama who disappeared, soon returned

 

He’s holding Rau in his arms

 

Although Rau had a face like she’d cried, after a moment she showed a smiling face

 

Shin-sama sat on the bed and set her on top of his lap while she gently brushed his head

 

I reached out my hand and gently brushed his soft hair

 

(How pretty…..)

 

His jet black glossy hair was shiny and beautiful, I want to touch it forever

 

I lifted my fingers and enjoyed the feeling of the hair slipping across my hand, as Shin-sama slowly stood up

 

“I’ll go search for a cook”

 

(Eh?)

 

Rau sat on the bed as he spoke to us

 

“Rau, today Rune can’t really move much, so later I’ll bring over some food”

 

“Okay”

 

“If you’re a good child and wait then I’ll bring back a present”

 

“Really?”

 

As I thought, he’s skillful at handling children

 

I wonder if it’s because he has his previous life’s memories?

 

Did he perhaps have a child?

 

In that case, what sort of relationship did he have with the person with a similar face to me?

 

If I ask will he tell me?

 

Shin-sama instantly disappears, and it’s just me and Rau, us two have been left behind in Shin-sama’s room

 

“When do you think Shin-sama’ll come back?”

 

Even though he’s only just now left, she’s already waiting for his return

 

However just hearing that Shin-sama isn’t there, even though it’s safe inside the castle, I can’t help but feel scared

 

If someone came now……I thought of it

 

I can’t move, and it seems my sword was sent along with my clothes to my room so it’s not in this room

 

It was only because Shin-sama was there that I could feel safe

 

(So that no one will come…..)

 

Since coming here, for the first time I began to feel anxious

 

“I wonder what sort of present it’ll be?”

 

“Won’t it be food?”

 

The things that Shin-sama buys are only high class goods far beyond my imagination

 

He’s different from me who’s never even had copper or silver bills, Shin-sama can use who knows how many gold coins

 

Just the value he’s spent on us up to now, we’ve never had

 

We aren’t slaves

 

He doesn’t make us work either

 

Allowing us freedom, letting us sleep in the same bed even

 

I suppose we are important to him

 

What are we to Shin-sama?

 

 

Rune side end

 

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